Courage To Move On

 They had been together for many a year,
Now, all she could feel was fear.
She gave all that she could give,
It just wasn't the way she wanted to live.

He left without a backward glance,
Not even giving their love a chance.
She often wonders what she could have done,
To keep him from going on the run.

Now she is living all alone,
With nothing to call her own.
She can barely make herself eat,
Wondering if her life will ever again be complete.

This woman is now moving along,
Building her courage, and becoming strong.
Time will heel her broken pride,
Toward the sunset her heart will glide.

I was just reading through my old emails back dated all the way from year 2000 to 2005 and it really made me realize how insensitive and straight forward (maybe in a blunt way) i've been to those who really cared for me and loved me and even those who declared their feelings for me. and each mail that i read showed pure sincerity.
I guess i was too spoiled and pampered back then with my princessy life where everyone held me on a pedestal 'delluding' me in a way, in my illusionist world, making me feel so much like a princess.

i would like to thank as well as apologize to all who showed their concern and love.

after 2005 till date, so much has happened. which totally stripped me off my 'princess' title.
it might be a blessing in disguise and probably God's plan to have put me through all these to realise the good and bad. and with all that has happened, it has widened my vision and made me a stronger person after going through all the emotional and mental tortures, the ugly truths and denied lies.
i don't blame anyone for all that has happened because everyone has a choice and that is something that no one can take away from us. so i only have myself to blame.

after finding out so many ugly and nasty things and happenings that has been happening over the past 3-4 years which made me feel like a total fool, i question myself and wonder why i still choose to allow emotions to over rule my mind and logical thinking. My heart and mind NEVER ever seem to get along well. especially for this someone who has really disappointed me so much with the awful truth that has been surfacing time after time. yet i still fall weak instantly whenever my soft spot is being tackled.

well i am NOT gonna disclose any of the awful truths here as one should respect the privacy of others and not ruin their reputation especially outta jealousy or anger.
Like that saying goes,  "do not do onto others what you do not want others to do onto you." (although 2 has totally tarnished my name outta anger and jealousy on their blogs with distroted facts) ...
that aside,
to support it with another saying, 'if someone slaps you on you left cheek, give him your right cheek to slap"
so, yeah.. i don't have to be too bothered by negative and nasty people who judge without realising the truth or rather, just being ANAL about situations which are self conclude.

Heaven has eyes to see. what goes around comes around. KARMA...
i think this is probably my karma for being mean to those who really turly sincerely cared and loved me without expecting anything in return. boohoo...

*sings... GONNA MAKE A CHANGE... FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE~~  GONNA FEEL SO GOOD, GONNA MAKE A DIFFERENCE, GONNA MAKE IT RIGHT!!!!! teeheeeee... I MISS MJ!!!!!!!!

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Find time to realize that there is one person who
mean so much to you, for you might wake up one morning
losing that
person who you thought meant nothing to you.

Sneak peek of my current work site.
But i'll be heading back to my main office soon!

23rd Nov 2009
Met Ling and Jiaman for dinner..

24th November 2009
went to Ion for some shopping after work...
i think that place has some kinda fengsui suction.
Whenever there, bank account raped



Then to Yifan's work place to get him before heading for dinner!

a new chapter unfolds : Pelvin & Kallise now together as one

attended the very last 'sister meeting' just hours before Weewei's big day.
My bad cause that was like the one and only meeting i attended knowing my MIA pattern la. keke..
but at least i still managed to get an idea of the plans and i can say, it was a SUCCESS!!
(besides the part where they played the video for Weewei & Pelvin's guest to have a good laugh at during the dinner event. Sad to say, the videographer cut out alot of FUNNY and Important parts of the morning gatecrash)
Sianz 1/2







getting ready before Pelvin and his brothers try to bribe their way in.



























With our Beautiful darling bride before her groom gets her..


then Out to TEKKAN!!!!!
only one pic taken cos was too busy being a 38jieMei trying to get as much as we could out of the situation and taking this opportunity to TEKKAN all the guys!!! teeheeeheeee...

But i must say, Pelvin is DAMN STEADY with his STEADY brothers plus his GENEROUS ANGBAOs!!!
But Our Weewei is definately Worth Much more!!! haaaa...

HUAT AH!!!





Pelvin and Kallise was like some kinda SUPERSTAR.
With heartfelt emotions, i was really Happy for the both of them.
It's just a different kinda special feeling i felt & had as compared to other weddings i've attended.

so while waiting for the tea ceromony & photo taking to end, we were cam-whoring all the way...

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Baobei was so sweet to me from the first day she saw me till the end of weewei's wedding.
she kept hugging me, kissing me, giving me her stickers, holding my hands, telling me really sweet stuff..
She's only 4 years old but i must say she's really very good with her PR skills! heehee

Can't wait to have a daughter of my own!.

Our 'Sisters' Power and actions certainly did prove our love for weewei.
Even the Emcee commented that in his whole carrer life of being an emcee, he has never met a group of sisters who goes all out for the bride and are sporting enough to challenge the 'brothers' despite spoiling our lady-like image to a certain extend.

Weewei~ WA NANG SISTER, STEADY EY!!! haaaaaaa
(hope i spelt it correctly. you know la,. my cheena SUCKS!)

K flew back in time from Thailand to attend the wedding as promised.

Ohh!!! ALOT OF OLD FRIENDS WHO ATTENDED THE WEDDING TOO!!!!!!
didnt have time to take photos with all of them plus erm,,, haaa i ain't the limelight.
but am really happy and surprised too see many of them really.
although at times i really wanna knock myself hard on my head cos i think my memory lost is making me feel like some kinda 'bo sim' bitch who cannot recall some of their names immediately.


 (ANTI SOCIAL LIANG!!)







THR GORGEOUS BRIDE TOGETHER WITH HER CHARMING GROOM~

I SERIOUSLY LOVE MY GIRLFRIENDS!!!!!!!
sobzz but all of them are either married already or on the verge of getting married.
i guess i'll be the one left on the shelf last.

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WHO WOULD HAVE THOUGHT?
ZHICHEN was the FIRST ONE DOWN for the night!! LOUSY!!!!!!
i think he was half gone already when i just reached fly.

such a pity i couldnt stay for long... just awhile and home i head..























more pics but sheng say cannot post his UGLY face! haaaaa.

alrighty... that's all folks..

The rest of the pics are taken with other cameras so,, yeah just gotta wait up ey.

MY BIRTHDAY IS IN 2 WEEKS AND I STILL HAVE NOT PLAN!!!!

Since im turning 25 = 1/4 of a century, i was thinking of throwing a birthday party - KIDS THEME with a PINATA filled with CANDIES, Different currency coins and.... SHOPPING VOUCHERS!!!!!!

but the sad part bout this year's that all my really good close buddies wouldnt be in singapore. :( Peggy's flying and the rest are still in aussie land , or china! :( so i guess i'll push the kids theme thingy to another year ba. sobzzz..
Plus ZOUK OUT falls on the same day as my bday for this year. FUCKEDUP!

Suggestions anyone?

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